“Life isn’t meant to be easy.”

This poetic and reflective memoir traces the journey of a woman who spent much of her life feeling different, overwhelmed, and unseen, until a late autism diagnosis reframed everything. Through raw recollections, quiet reckonings, and deeply human moments, Niki invites readers into the rich, complex inner world she once tried to hide.

From childhood confusion to a therapy experience that fractured trust, from mental health struggles to finding her voice as a therapist, this is a story of what it means to come home to yourself, slowly and painfully, but with grace. Writing became part of healing. So did the truth.
For those who feel too much, question too often, and wonder if they’re the only ones— this book is for you. You’re not alone. You’re not broken. And healing is still possible.